ABOUT ME
I would like to introduce myself: My name is Lazarus. I chose this name because my story is identical to the story of Lazarus in the Bible. I died morally and all hope in my return to life was lost to the point of burial in a tomb, until Jesus "cried with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come forth!”" John 11:43. This book is a summary of twelve years I spent buried in the tomb of addiction to pornography and masturbation. The best years of my life and the finest days in my youth were lost to sex addiction. God allowed this to happen but this “sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the Son of God may be glorified through it.” John 11:4.
Amen! I believe that God allowed me to go through this tribulation to be a source of help to people suffering from pornography addiction. God saved me from bitter bondage and I will remain indebted to God all of my life, and nothing can pay back this debt. Many days, months and years went by while I was still trapped inside the tomb of sexual addiction. I repeatedly cried bitterly saying, "Where are you God? Why are you leaving me alone? I don't want this defilement." I was like Mary and Martha, crying in tears saying, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” John 11:32. Constantly, I sat by the tomb, weeping from my bondage, feeling great desperation, unable to find my way out of this slavery. Back then, I felt as if I was crying all by myself and nobody cared about me. Now I realized that "Jesus wept." John 11:35. Jesus wept just like I was weeping, but I couldn't see Him because I was too self-centered.
God used the right person to take away the stone from the door of the tomb and by a word from his mouth, "he who had died came out bound hand and foot with grave clothes, and his face was wrapped with a cloth." John 11:44. Finally, I went through a recovery phase where God's servants freed me from any remaining bondage.
I detailed the story of my miraculous healing in a book not to make money and not to become famous but to spread hope and good news to everyone. There is nothing to be proud of in my story and it took me a lot of prayers and tears to write down this book. The only reason I wrote this book is I couldn't resist the urge to serve and publicly tell people that there is hope and porn addiction can be healed. As far as making money I couldn't morally stand making a business of God's grace that I don't deserve and I couldn't pay it back. All of the book income goes to Saint Mary and Saint Mercurius church in Belleville NJ. Our Lord God and Savior Jesus Christ Said to his disciples " Freely you have received; freely give" Matthew 10:5. I always willing to send a free copy of the book if needed; send me an email at lazarus.of.alexandria@gmail.com
I was born and raised in Alexandria Egypt and I immigrated to United States in my twenties. I am married and God blessed me two kids that I don't deserve. I am Coptic Orthodox by faith and I am a very big fan of my church who had a major role in my healing journey.
I believe my calling is to help save youth from the pornography monster who is destroying our youth lives. The statistics around porn are scary and the threat is real just recently the Time magazine stated that the total hours of porn watched on one website was roughly around 4.3 billion hours which equivalent to 500,000 years! Imagine the waste and the amount of evil in the world we live in. I am dedicating this website to fight porn and offer resources for parents to protect their children as well as help for porn addict to recover and come back to God.
In Christ
Lazarus of Alexandria
